Sleepless Nights...

I know we have all had those nights where you are so ready for bed but your brain is racing and won't shut off. Those of you who have never had this experience I am very jealous of you... well sometimes I'm jealous, because other times it isn't so bad. Sometimes in those sleepless nights I have amazing idea and bursts of energy. Other times I end up finishing off a book that I just can't seem to put down. Then there are nights like last night were I almost got out of bed, it was way too cold do get out of bed so that's why I didn't, and pull out my laptop to blog.

So instead I've dropped my oldest off to school and it is just me and my youngest and my computer at my fingertips. I have to say one thing that is a good thing and yet seems like a bad thing at times is I like to know and understand people. Especially people I want in my life. It is good, because I think it is important that we try to learn and understand others so we better know how to react to the things they do or don't do and so that we don't misunderstand and cause a problem where it could have been avoided. The problem is a lot of people don't see it that way. A lot of people are more about themselves and a lot of people are very closed lipped about themselves. It isn't a bad thing it just makes it hard for people like me who don't have a lot of boundaries and want to gain more knowledge.

Sometimes I forget information that can actually help me. Like someone said they have been single most of their lives, and I heard the words and I understood but it didn't fully register what that would mean later down the road. While myself, well I've been in a lot of long term relationships which is the exact opposite of that person lol. So oh yeah it was frustrating at moments until it dawned on me last night while I couldn't sleep. Let me tell you, when that moment of realization hit me so many things clicked into place and a lot of confusion, frustration, and just a bunch of emotions settled. Had I paid more attention or really understood what exactly the information I had meant I probably could have saved myself a lot of trouble, but who likes to take the easy route??? Granted just because I've realized this doesn't mean all my questions are answered just gives me more insight to my situation and am better equipped to handle things. At least that is the theory, sometimes even if we have all the information we need, other facts totally mess it up and yeah we still don't react or respond how we should. But I have hope always the optimistic, so fingers crossed I won't be such an emotional basket case. Well for the moment that is all. Off to work on another section for a bit.

Bebs!